I've been struggling with the decision on whether or not to start taking anti-depressants. I don't like my depression all that much. What I do like, (and this is odd for most people to understand) is my anxiety. I love it 99.5% of the time. It motivates me. It gives me the grades I want which is my only real self-esteem booster. I literally equate myself with my GPA.
I know it's possible or really likely that I'll lose the edge of my anxiety if I start taking anti-depressants. I dunno. This terrifies me and makes me not want to take them. On the other hand, I don't want to be so depressed anymore, especially during the semester. -_-